~Academy Community Thread~

Just last night. Not tonight.

Will be a sad day when these pills are gone... which will be later today.

Hhmmm... it appears I'm losing my voice. Slipping in and out of consciousness rather often. Occasionally my chest tightens up and it almost feels like I'm going to have problems breathing, but I never do. Yay. Oh yeah, I'm occasionally hearing things. And possibly seeing things.

Masturbate.

Well, I sure as hell won't do it on cam for you.

lol... I have never been this fucked up in my life. This is insane.

Perhaps I shouldn't take this many drugs again. I fell asleep and then just woke up having a fucking panic attack. Holy shit...

I saw Wonder Girls last night. Concert was so intense it ended at 9:30.

Feeling a little sub-par today. Got drunk last night (subconsciously celebrating America's birthday, I'm sure), but I didn't get trashy.

We're grilling burgers at a friend's apartment tonight. Going to hit up some pina coladas, but probably won't drink too much.

Anyone have plans for the 4th?

You're back finally!

No plans for me.

Saw Bermuda last night. As always they were freaking amazing. Silent Screams put on a good show for a UK band that no one knows and Buried In Verona played a perfect set.

I didn't go anywhere, just didn't have anything to say!

That's right. Nobody has shit to say. This message board system is pointless.

eh, it has its low points, but overall, i would say it has had far more high points.

You didn't even have anything to say about the Wonder Girls.

It would suck if this place was gone.

Here is the thing... I made this message board so I could talk to my friends. And have fun with my friends. And what has this turned into? Bullshit that I have to keep up with but don't care about AT ALL. I can't come here and post and have fun. No. People bitch and complain about how I do things around here. Can I even talk to some of you in private and just have someone to talk to in private? Nope. You either don't give a shit or tell everyone anyway. So what's the fucking point?

I've become an alcoholic and a drug addict in the past few months. Was there anyone here that I could turn to for help? Well that's just fucking laughable.

Everyone says go and get help or talk to your friends. Ha. The people I consider 'friends' get fucking annoyed or mad with me when I turn to them with my problems. But I'm expected to listen and help them with all their shit.

See, this is why I don't fucking like people.

Even someone tonight. Someone I was starting to consider my friend. I asked if I could talk to them about my problems. They said yes. The end result? They fucking blocked me. So fuck people and fuck you people. Really.

I just changed the Admin password (The account that can handle anything on this board, a power even above this account) and I'm wondering now if I should give it away freely.

People are self centred. They are only concerned with themselves. Sadly we all have to shoulder our own problems. There are the rare few people who care but they aren't easy to find. I'm bad with offering advice and all that in these kinda situations man. When I fell into addiction I knew that I'd eventually have to get out of it and when the time came when I knew that I couldn't live that life anymore I just had to leave it behind. Its hard but if you want out you have to fight for it.

I don't want out. I'd rather just overdose and be done with it.

I never said anything useful because I figured you were just being nihilistic and that you didn't want any help. And I would help you myself but I'm 16, so anything I say advice-wise to an adult is usually pushed off because 16-year-olds don't know anything about the world or life.

So if you need to talk, I'll talk, but I'm assuming you'd rather speak with someone else.

Dont give up on people so easy. I'm not perfect, but I have always TRIED to be "here" for you. I can't fix anything for you, but I will always listen and give my opinion if I think it helpful at all.

I don't know if I should say it here or not, you kind of got ticked when I mentioned things we talked about but anyway.

It sounds like Lox needs a friend he can trust, someone he can hang out with. I don't know what happened to him two nights ago but it's apparent to me he doesn't really want to do drugs and drink so heavily. He wants someone he can relate to and talk with (I don't qualify I guess.)

As far as I can tell most of the people here like you (lox) and consider you a friend. No one wants you to die or spiral into depression and whatnot. So I guess what I'm trying to say if anyone lives near him maybe you can talk to him in person not just via the boards or messenger.

That would be best.