~Academy Community Thread~

Loxx O))) wrote:

It's cool how you don't speak to me anymore.

sorry, hun. i just didn't really have a response to the dream thing... and most of the stuff with the girl seemed to have panned out/i agreed with blooge anyway.

and good luck with the financial aid shit. i hate dealing with all that.

Loxx O))) wrote:

I had a weird dream last night. I knew I was dreaming but I couldn't wake myself up. And I kept waking up inside the dream and going back to sleep ending up back in the same place.

That sounds terrifying.

Do you have a big fear of losing control?

I'd say it was scarier than having a nightmare on one level. I at least was aware it was a dream so I had nothing to really fear inside my head. So, technically, it wasn't a nightmare or something that was just terrifying. On the other hand there was that helplessness and loss of control. In my dream I kept wondering how the hell I was going to get out of it. And I actually don't know what happened. I suddenly just snapped out of it. I suppose maybe I was using so much force in my head that it caused a reaction in real life. I've had dreams before where I find I physically can't say a word... and then when I finally do it, I'm awake saying it.

But, I dunno about me having a fear of losing control in real life. It feels like I seldom have control over things no matter how much I want to. I am a person that would prefer to be in charge and having things go my way, though.

Oh, also, I was a bit worried about my classes going into it. But after sitting and listening to the teacher and explaining what we'd be doing and how we'd be doing it, I feel a lot more comfortable. I'm actually kind of looking forward to it now. Instead of taking roll, the teacher wanted us to introduce ourselves and say why we were taking the class. Pretty much everyone said because they played video games and wanted to make games. I was literally the only person that said they were interested in coding.

Glad you're feeling better about your classes. I start back Wednesday and am eager to see how I'll feel about my own.

I have to go to "orientation" for work on both Wednesday and Thursday nights. Kinda dreading that, but oh well. I THINK I will get paid for those hours.

We decided to patch things up... and then today she gets mad at me over shit I said to someone else. Essentially, someone started shit with me on the BDSG profile. I called her a nigger. So this girl I was into got mad at me... even though I had to explain to her about the situation (when she already KNEW what I did with BDSG). Not to mention the fact that I was hanging out with a black guy one night when I was talking to her. Ugh. Fuck this shit. I'm leaving here too.

I'm glad this fucking semester I was looking forward to is ruined.

I also deleted the BDSG profile. I leave the boards up even though there is no point. Done with music... done with the bullshit.

Have you met this chick?

i'm so thankful tomorrow is friday! i'm exhausted after only 2 days of classes and work. yeeeeeeesh.

there is a sheryl crow concert i wanted to go to this weekend, but i can't afford to spend $78 on a ticket right now. bummer.

I'm pretty tired myself. I keep trying to go to bed at a decent hour, then I go to bed an hour after I want to, and I'm tired again.

I still haven't eaten my dinner and it's 9 pm. I have my sushies to eat!

Sushi! I didn't even eat supper last night because I was so tired. I'm already looking forward to the nap I will be taking this afternoon.

I got sushies at lunch then had it in the glove box for about an hour while I went to the bank and Target.

It is hard for me to make myself eat left-over sushi. Like same day, maybe... But I had some in there and tried to eat it the next day--it just wasn't the same.

I WISH WE HAD A TARGET!!!!!!!!!!!

It wasn't leftover. I bought it at lunch to eat for dinner. I don't think I'd eat it if it was another day, the package even says not to. They make it fresh at work so yeah. I wouldn't eat the stuff you find at the 7-11 either.

How do you not have a target? I guess Wal-Mart has Mississippi on lockdown.

I only eat sushi from the Japanese sushi/steakhouse here called Umi. They have sushi in the union at school, but I don't trust it. Same day sushi, I think I could do. But the next day is just bad.

MS has Targets, but not Grenada (hometown) or Starkville (school). I LOOOOOOVE Targets, though. SO much nicer than Walmarts.

I think target stores have better looking women in them. :p Not sure about nicer though, they are pretty much the same thing. Less Chinese crapola to buy though.

Umi means Beach in Japanese. ^_^

i absolutely HATE walmart, but it is pretty much the only option here. we do have a couple other grocery stores, but that is about it.

you learn something new everyday--i had no idea what umi meant!

we went bowling last night. i had a decent game (85-ish), then a bad game (60-ish), then ended the night with a 109.

All of those scores aren't very good.

But I'm not any better so... yeah.

Anything CLOSE to or over 100 is FANTASTIC for me!!!

I'm currently failing at homework. I hate homework. Ughhhhhhhh.

What class?

victimology.

interesting, but i HATE mandatory reading assignments (have to turn in discussion questions)

You're the only victim in that class.

Hahahahahaha it's because I'm a girl. We are weak and defenseless. EASY TARGETS. That is what one of our textbooks (Victims of Crime) says. The other book (Female Victims of Crime) says the other book is bullshit.

Sounds like a very productive class.

the teacher said we have the two books so we can see BOTH sociological sides to the study of victims.

Long week it seemed this week. Maybe because I was half conscious through the majority of it.